Enjoying the ride

So my loves it has been quite a busy and fun couple of weeks in my life. As I mentioned before I decided to sign up for Central Casting here in LA to do some extra work for shits and gigs. I took it upon myself to meet with some of the casting directors there to see what they are looking for. Who knew that introducing myself and chatting for 2 minutes would get me 4 bookings in one week. Every set I've been on has been awesome. The crew & cast have been really nice too.

I have two words for you CRAFT SERVICES!!! My inner Dean Winchester comes out when I talk about craft services. My god do they have amazing food and I'm not just talking about rich foods either. I had to pinch myself when I saw the spread. Seriously people I don't know how I lived before this magical food machine appeared in my life. I have to admit I get the biggest kick out of seeing people who claim they don't eat crap food go right for the cake, cookies, and pasta...then go back for more. Furthermore, I don't know what to do when I'm not on set. Who is going to feed me?!?!? WHO?!

Aside from the food, this is a really fun gig to do. I look at this like any other job I've had. This is a business and you must be professional, kind, and most importantly listen. I'm being cast to be a part of a production, I'm not (nor have I ever thought I'm) bigger than anyone else. I'm the lowest man on the totem pole and I'm excited for the challenge. Before my last job ended I told myself that the next job I get "I don't care if I start at the bottom cause I will get to the top eventually."


Cheers~


(Below: Aaron Thomas & I on set)

Book Review: A Grief Observed by C.S. Lewis

In this book A Grief Observed by C. S. Lewis, he beautifully depicts such a raw look at his own grief over the death of this wife.  He takes you through a slew of emotions, rants, an insights.  It reads as rapidly as the mind speaks to ones self.  Without a long drawn out "how they met" or even a descriptive look at her last days, you still feel every bit of pain and despair Lewis felt.

"What is grief compared with physical pain?  Whatever fools may say the body can suffer twenty times more than the mind.  The mind has always some power of evasion.  At worst, the unbearable thought only comes back and back but the physical pain can be absolutely continuous" C.S. Lewis pg. 40 A Grief Observed

How he describes what grief truly feels is unlike anything I have ever heard.  You almost wish for physical pain because you know that eventually there will be an end.  But grief is of the mind, no matter how hard we try to evade our thoughts they come back to haunt us over and over again.

I could literally go line by line through this book and detail it out but I advise you to read it for yourself.  What you will take from this is that grief no matter what the form; death or betrayal in my experience, impacts your life greatly.  It takes us on an incredible journey of selfishness, despair, acceptance, you name it.  It can be a force that can make of break you.  Which will you choose?

You can play

It doesn't matter if you are gay or straight, if you can play, YOU CAN PLAY!

I'm so proud of how many hockey players are rallying for You Can Play.  Please watch this!

FREEDOM!!!!

I hope you envisioned William Wallace screaming that as I intended.  This post is long overdue, like a year or more.  So if you haven't heard I am no longer working at my former place of employment.  Interesting fact is that an hour after it happened my stomach stopped hurting, related much?  I also haven't thrown up bile, what little food I could eat, or been dry heaving throughout the day since this happened.  So long diet (joke).  Stress and anxiety do some crazy things to your body.

Jobs come and go but you only have one body.  Be good to it.